Cos I Need You

I can take the rain pouring down on the roof of my empty house. That doesn’t bother me. I can take the tears flowing down my cheeks, and not seeing you there to wipe them away. I’m not afraid to keep wearing this mask, and keep smiling and laughing even though I feel like crying. I’m not upset that I always need to pretend that I’m okay. What hurts me the most, is being so close, and having so much to say, and having somebody to listen, and needing to walk away. I have seen what could be, I now know what love is. I wish I could go back to that week.
It’s hard to deal with the pain, because it’s always in my heart. It’s hard to force that smile when I see so many couples and so many friends laughing, and I’m all alone. I get up and get dressed; I’m living with so much sadness and regret. If only I could start over, go back to that place. If only you were here. I don’t need you to wipe my tears, I need you to be here, so I’ll never need to cry again. I miss you. I need you. I miss you so much.